Talk about a freaky experience. I was visiting one of my very favorite shops in Port Perry yesterday. Full of statues of goddesses and Ganesha; incense and potpourri; books on witches and angels; pendulums, crystals, huge hunks of amethyst....the stone of joy; pillows, shawls and funky, sexy clothing. Oh yah, stick a gift certificate for this store in my birthday card and I'm a happy girl.

I was chit chatting with the proprietor Sally....one of the most gentle, sweet souls I have ever encountered....when in walked a woman. Name of Jude. She's the resident psychic. I've always avoided her. I have never wished to know my future. I prefer making it myself. So the three of us kibitzed for a few minutes til I found a gap in the conversation and could start backing slowly out of the store; away from the witch. As I got close to the door handle, she was remarking on the coming of Halloween, the day when the veil between the worlds is most penetrable. At this point I said a quick goodbye and bolted, only to hear Jude say something that made me walk right back in and ask, "What did you say?"

She said, "You have the ability to walk between these worlds." My heart sunk. I thought crap, here we go. I didn't ask to be "read". I didn't pay for it. I don't want it.

Jude stood staring at my head and told me she had never seen such a powerful purple aura. Purple signifies the "ultimate". Purple is the colour of kings. Purple is the colour of the crown chakra....the place of knowing.

I was practically whimpering inside going shut up, shut up, shut up.
But Jude was just winding up. She said, "You are a powerful being with a powerful mission during this incarnation. You are a healer and a teacher and you won't rest until you complete your mission."

I looked at her and said, "Well yah, there're some things I want to accomplish and yah I'm a bit driven, but so are a lot of people."

She replied, "But you're apart from them. You've always been apart. You walk alone. You don't think like the rest of us; you think in concepts."

Oh no, said I. No way is this girl walking alone. I like my sex you see. I like my lover. I want to build a shack in Lemonville with him one day.

Jude rolled her eyes and said, "Linda, I didn't say you had to BE alone. Just that you are a special person and what you have to do, you do alone. Doesn't mean you can't come home to someone."

"Oh", I said.

She continued by saying, "The thing is, the people in your life have to take special care of you."

This time I snorted right out loud and said, "Lady, I'm not two. I'm a strong, independent, kick ass woman."

Jude finished by saying, "All I meant was, it's been a hard life for you, always being different. Even your own family and friends haven't understood you have they?" I dropped my chin and shook my head sadly. She said, "They just have to love you more, that's all."

After that I took my leave. I KNEW I should have left when she walked in the store. Always follow your intuition Linda. That's my golden rule. But no. Instead I was stripped bare and my heart, soul, head and intentions were examined by this otherworldly creature.

I've always known I was different. And yah, it's caused more sad and lonely days than I can count. But to have it recognized by an "expert"....well that was just creepy. Because for my world to work according to her, I need to be loved more by people who have their own troubles, their own agendas and goals, their own sorrows. Who's going to have time to give extra special understanding and affection to the purple aura'd weirdo?

Jeez. All I went in there for was a sexy top to thrill my lover with.
I hope when his eyes light on me and that top with lascivious pleasure he also doesn't see purple rays shooting out of my head.